Ahhh.. Well that hot shower I said about really helped, and the heat pad on my back now it grinding away at that knot... but my back still hurts... I really wish I knew what I did to it.. I'm not accoustomed to feeling so broken down!

On an upside I got birthday presents Galore today! Erin got me a Jigundous Drawing pad and a brand new 4H Pencil (which is so totally perfect and awsome) She also got me some more incense sticks and a real burner for them! I don't have to use a 2x4 with a hole in it anymore! Thanks Sweetie, You know all the right things to get me! My parents also took me out shopping to decide on a gift... So they got me the Wacom Graphire2, which for those of you not familiar with Wacom tablets is a pad about the size of a mousepad that plugs into your computer, and comes with a special pen that you write on the pad and
!MAGIC! It writes on the screen! This is especially cool for working in paint programs and photoshop... It also doubles as a mouse, and has a wireless mouse with it (in case you don't feel like using the pen I guess) Ethier way, for my birthday not being till Monday, i've been pulling in some super cool stuff! Well, it's late and i've got presents to play with... I might Update tomorrow.. but possibly not till I get back to school! So keep your eyes on the screen!

Thanks for a great weekend Hunny, I'm so glad you could come see me! It was just the pickme up I needed! You always make me so happy!! (that was for Erin, so if your not Erin sorry, you didn't really have to read that)

Want to know more about Wacom tablets? try www.Wacom.com pretty cut and dry huh?
as an extra note, www.explodingdog.com is done using a Wacom tablet and is where I heard about the darn things in the first place!! So how bout that! Small world..

Don't do it because you have to, Don't do it because you should, Don't do it because it's the right thing to do... The only way it will be worthwhile, is if you do because you WANT to.

Erin just left.... :( I was sorry to see her go, but she's a busy girl, works harder than anyone I know... and yes I'm beyond lucky to have her... She's so wonderful...

Lindsay, Lindsay... Sorry about my horrible bastardization of your name... You can call me Den if it'll make you feel any better!

I don't know what I did to it, but my back hurts so bad right now I can't even move without it shooting pain throughout my entire body... I'm getting ready to go home for the rest of the weekend... hopefully a hot shower and some ice packs will fix whatever is scrambling my organs around...

I'll write some more once I'm home and hopefully feeling better...

Live within the rules set by nature..

It's the afternoon... I'm waiting for my Erin to show up... she said she'd be here at 4ish... So, Hopefully she'll be within another hour or two... But excited to death to see her! It's been just a little bit WAY too long since I last saw her, and it's aways good to see my baby... On a positive note, I belive that all my troubled friends, have reconcilled, and are once again the shiny happy people I know they are... The small Jazz concert is tonight, Because there are so many people everyone only gets one solo, By whatever miracle I don't know what, I'm actually getting to blow on Take the "A" Train.... THE ONE I ACTUALLY WANTED!! How about that! Miracles never cease... again, i'm not sure i'm going to get a chance to update tonight, I'd like to think I will... but frankly I don't think it's going to happen! So yeah... I think i've finally come to terms with turning 20 , i'm not particuarly excited about it... but I think I can at least deal with it... But then again I personally think i'm good at dealing HAHA... I'm glad I've been getting so many hits and so many positive comments from visitors to my nifty little site... I've had my counter for a month exactly and i've already generated 138 hits!! That's beans for a major website! But for me, and my little known bloggy... That ain't bad! So thank you for the support and I hope you continue to make me feel like i'm not just talking to myself all time!

Replace smoke detector batteries every jan 1

Good morning! I thought i'd give all you spiffy wonderful people an early morning blog to jump start this friday of fridays! Granted I'm just a wee bit too groggy too say too much intelligent... A second Lindsey commented on my page yesterday! One that i'm not sure who she is!! But she's a girl who likes videogames, tabasco sauce, mint tea, and radiohead... so how about that! There may be hope for this crazy world yet! Not much, but the few of us who are mighty will slowly take over, and soon you'll find yourselves playing video games, and drinking mint tea, and then you'll carry a bottle of tabasco sauce to the dining room with you! MWAA HAA HAA!

Whew... Sorry, I got a bit carried away there... I guess it's alot easier to be manaicle first thing in the morning... thought not nessissarily easier to spell it... As I so often do, i'm going to take this moment to plug a web site that is just swell.... WWW.AtomicDog.com The pictures created on this site are somewhere between hilarious, mind boggingly deep, and just purely thoughtful... They're simplicity adds an element of realism that's truely shocking... I recomment going back and browsing through the archives as well... You can definentally see his work evolving as the months go by... so again I say www.AtomicDog.com You won't regret it... Makes nice desktop backgrounds too!

Well, great... writing that just used my total creative brain functions for the morning! Now i'm running on empty already... Go fig right? LOL, Well Erin's going to be here tonight... so i'm more wound up than kid a showbiz pizza! (Chuckie Cheese's for those of you in a younger generation) But it'll always be Showbiz pizza to me... But anyway... Erin will be here, and i'll be in a blissful state... to blissful to blog? I dunno, we'll have to see

Be content to seem what you really are.

there are bomb doors and there are revolving doors doors on the rudders of big ships and there are revolving doors there are doors that open by themselves there are sliding doors and there are secret doors there are doors that lock and doors that don't there are doors that let you in and out but never open but there are trap doors that you can't come back from

Well things are certainlly interesting around here, people forgetting who they are, people realizing who they really are... me sitting in the middle... Crazy Crazy Crazy... But overall I think this was good for a thursday.. and even better tomorrow is friday! How cool is that, I get to play some Jazz and see my baby! I can't wait honestly, i'm all wound up and ready... Although I want to work on my improves on my tunes tomrrow, they're ok, but nothing fantastic... I'm going to rant some more about Hail to the Thief and Tabasco sauce... Both are wonderful... Not as wonderful as my Erin mind you... but pretty good none-the-less.... Tabasco sauce adds such a marveouls taste to everything it comes in contact with.... Maybe i'm obbsessed... There haven't been alot of comments on my last couple posts... Am I boring? I know your reading this.... Do I need to beg for a comment every time I write something new?! I also didn't managed to get anything cleaned up last night either don't you know... First I got sidetracked with a drawing, and then Meals came up and we had some fun HALO action going on... Butt Rockets and all... Don't ask... Well I guess you can ask... Butt Rockets is a 50 Kill death match with on Grenades and Rockets... If you understood that, I hope you appreciate it's Magesty... If you didn't it'd bore you anyway... I don't quite know why girls in general don't enjoy videogames with the same passion and zeal that us guys do... Has anyone ever tried to explain it? They should I think... Or maybe we'll just leave it one of those great unsolved mystery's... So what can you do? Is that show still on TV? Unsolved Mystery's.. I guess not that went off the air awhile ago... I bet they could have gotten to the bottom of this... or the top, respectivly...haha...

I don't know if I could live without the delete key. I mean honestly... One of the kids in the youth room just told me that their typing teacher doesn't allow them to use the delete/backspace key... How wrong is that!!! I mean seriously that's just harsh... and not very realistic... The delete key is a most important part of typing!!!!! I swear to bob it really is! I'm bored... and tired, I really can't wait too see Erin, It's just going to be so wonderful... its just been too too too too too too long since I last saw her... I don't function well when i'm that far away from her for so long.... Ohh well, i'm getting by, but I will be so terribly happy to see her...

Hmmm... what else is new? Not much really... Kinda a dull life i'm having... but worthwhile and interesting none the less... I'm really starting to appreciate the person i've become and the way I live my life... I feel i'm finally on some fairly sturdy ground in my life... I could still stand to loose a few hundred pounds... but A)Looks aren't everything... and B)I just love who I am... I feel myself as a person more than makes up for my many shortcomings... This bright outlook is very unlike me... but it's been going strong for sometime now... Maybe i'm really starting to live the taoist principles that I preach so often... and yes anyone i've given advice too more likely than not i've mentioned at least a little bit of taoist wisdom whether you realized it or not... of course it's also a little christianity and a bit of buddism, Maybe some Hinduism.. it's hard to say... The ideals of the worlds religions cross each other so often it's amazing.. The similarities are often astounding... Ok... I still might have more to write later tonight... but things are going strong!! Ohh yess. Strong indeed... and they can stay that way as far as i'm concerned! Ohh yes indeed... So for now.. i'll leave you with that... I hope your ok with that... if you want more... ASK FOR IT! HAHA yeah use that comments bar... you KNOW you want to.. you can feel your mouse slowly gravitating twoard it... there you go... there you go... See Don't you feel better now that you've left a comment? What?! You haven't... Well what are you waiting for! It's so cool! Do it! Everyone else is!


Everything that happens can at certain times and for certain people be a stepping stone twoard spiritual growth... We must go forward from where we stand, you cannot jump to the absolute.

Ok... So things are really great, but they aren't horrible either... I realized I have done any taoist reading or study in a while... although I still see Taoism all over the place in the every day world... I need to clean up this work environment again... Un-packin from New Oreleans left this place pretty wrecked... So cleaning it is tonight... Maybe they'll pull a one two punch and make Dutchmen Day tomorrow... I wouldn't mind no Modern Latin America! But who knows... You'd think that if The new Radiohead CD (which rocks) could leak, the true date of Dutchmen Day could too!!! Why aren't I an organized person!!! I dislike mess and love cleaning but here I sit in eternal Clutter! I'm one messed up cookie! But who isn't? The messed up cookies in this world are what make it such a great place to be... Taoism.. I'm really starting to remember why I like it's teachings so much... smart stuff.. Ok, I was going to type more right now... but frankly... this mess needs to be dealt with immediatly!! I will write again when I've conquered!

DOWN WITH MY CLUTTER!

Ever hear a toilet flush? Well that's about what's going on around me right now... I think the day came crashing down for everyone I know... I'm hanging on to a freshness chip for the moment... Don't know how long that's going to last... Maybe i'll go into detail later... maybe i'll just deny I said a single thing...

Well... No Dutchmen day for me today... Nope, Janice I know I know, you told me so... Well Pooh... But it wasn't a bad day anyway... nothing terribly exciting and pretty easy for a wednesday... So all I really have to live through yet is Thursday and Friday! And then I'll get to see my Erin! It's getting so close, and i'm getting really excited because I miss her so crazy much you just wouldn't belive it! Well maybe you would, I guess I talk about her alot.... But TOO BAD, she's my Baby and This is my Site, and I'll Talk about her as much as I want too! So there!

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Ok Now I know I mentioned it previously, but I have obtained a copy of the new Radiohead Album out in June.. and frankly.. It's the best album i've heard in a long long long time... I absolutally love it... It's laying rock down like only Radiohead can... If you'd like to experience some of it... please just contact me... I'd be glad to introduce you to the only hope for Rock... Ahhhhhhhhhhh so good...

So is Mint Tea... God bless Mint Tea, so Minty, so Tea... very nice... I'm glad to live near a Turkey hill... and on that note! Next year Me, Dan Melius, Brandon Rubenik, and John Feather have secured ourselves an apartment in Derikson A!!! Yeah for A kitchen, High Ceilings, our own bathroom, parking out back... and being signifigantly closer to Turkey Hill!! Ohh an a living room to properly set up my surround sound... Yeah... I'm definentally ready for next yeat... If only I survive this one!..

My drawings have really been pretty decent lately.. I'm alsmot pleased with some of my artwork.. I still have so much that needs to be better... But i'm definentally getting there... Little by little... which I suppose is the best way to go about doing these things... I've definentally lost my stub of a 4H pencil though... one second I had it, the next it was gone!!! I have no clue where or how or why... But I miss it... So for now i'm making due with my 2H, and much to my dismay an F.... But ohh well, i'm making due until I can replace them...

I'm kinda excited about what my parents might get me for my birthday, i've mentioned a sub-woofer for my surround sound... and i've STRONGLY mentioned a Wacom Tablet for my computer... then I could really start doing some of my drawing right on my PC!! Well wouldn't that be nifty!! Intrigued? Want to know more about Wacom Tablets? Try here... http://www.wacom.com/index2.cfm They are very very neat!

Well i've got to be getting to work... some of you have been asking questions (although nothing, deep, intriguing, or thoughful) but a question is a question and I am grateful for them! So keep em coming folks!! Thanks a bunch, You know I love all y'all

You cannot love without giving.

New news! Erin left me a question too!!! Thanks Babes!! She wanted to know what I wanted for my birthday... so here is the list, 4H lead pencils, Sketch Pads, and an electric pencil sharpener! there you go babe!

Today was another good day! How about that... Two in a row... not normal for me, now if wednesday works out maybe I can make this whole week go for the better... It was april fools and I didn't really even try to get anyone, but the day is not over yet hehe...

Friday is the small jazz concert, all who are able better be there, or I will be sorely dissapointed... But my Erin is coming! And anytime I get to see my Erin, well don't you know i'm just the damned happiest camper in the world... She's so adorable!!

Word on the street is tomorrow is dutchmen day! Boy that would make my entire week I totally SWEAR!!! Wednesday's are my most horrible busy day, having a dutchmen day tomorrow would make my day... so we'll see... Who really knows for sure!

Ok, last I checked I only had one question (thank you Lindsey) So ASK ME QUESTIONS! PLEASE! It wouldn't take long... So now to answer the question.... The question was.... What do I like about church... the answer absolutally NOTHING, I get to hang out with Lindsey, and talk about how much I DON'T like church... Yep... there are no redeming qualities about it... So there you go, Don't like church? Want details? Just ask me about them!!
Ok, i'm done for now... If tomorrow is Dutchmen Day I will give you a nice SUPER LONG, SUPER INFORMATIVE, SUPER NIFTY!!!! BLOG... If not, i'll at least update :) By the way 112 visitors so far!!! Yippie! I feel so loved!

Communication is the key to any relationship, if you cannot communicate you do not have the functions nessisary to be close to someone... If you can't rationally without anger, disscuss your faults you will never be able to fix them...

Guess what I found out today! My birthday is this coming monday... Honestly with all my excitement in New Orleans I had completly forgotten about it... I'm going to be 20 which sucks really bad... I don't want to be 20, twenty, nope doesn't look any better written out... twenty is in the middle not a teenager, but not really an adult... It kind of sucks... I suppose I could use it as a year countdown to 21... but I don't drink so I don't really want to be 21 either, the fact of the matter is i'm getting old... and I don't mind being old... I'm just not too keen on it yet... This week has been good so far... and tomorrow should be good... but I have a bad feeling that it's going to go downhill from there, I dunno just a hunch... I'm back on my diet today... I did pretty good... but it's going to be tough... I just really wish I could get into shape... I've never been an attractive person.. but i'm working on it...
I also found out I can start working on my Soprano Sax half the time in the Jazz lessons... which makes me happy... I think i'm going to start working out again.. although i'm not sure where i'm going to find the time or the motivation..... I also need to discover some miracle to get my grades up.. I dunno.. I'm just not a good student.. i'm not very motivated about anything come to think of it... I really don't like myself all that much when it comes to my work ethic... my desk is all cluttered and that's slowly agitating me too... My nerves are starting to wear a bit thin... lack of sleep probably isn't helping that, I think it's been too long since i've seen Erin... She's my sunshine and my motivation... I dunno.. i'm guess i'm just on the downswing of the good mood i've been in lately... figures it was too good to last... I got a little more than half of the new radiohead CD however, and it's really really good... it would improve my mood.. except that it's radiohead, and I love it, but it's not the happiest of music, it's almost pure emotion, almost feels outside the bounds of happy or sad... it's very hard to describe.... Anyway, I'm sure this is just rambling, flat out rambling... it's very disorganized (of course what of my writing is organized?) I dunno.... I don't know what I was going to write...

If you guys and gals could do me a favor and post some questions in the comments box? Is there anything you'd like to know about me? Is there something I promised i'd write about than never did? Do you have any abstract questions? Need to know the address to send birthday gifts? Anything at all... Help me put some worthwhile material here in my little space.. Ok? Good

I dunno what ever happened with my webpage... the professor who was to put it up on LVC's site apperently never did... or maybe I did something wrong on my end... but I don't know what... and he hasn't e-mailed me... ohhhhh well...

again.. i'm spent... ask me some questions don't just let me ramble like this all the time ok?
G'night, I've got some Jet Lag to catch up on....

Act the part, and you will become the part...

YAWN............. Well Folks and Folkettes, I'm tired as crap and it's only one-thirty, I didn't get much sleep during my whole New Orleans (Pronounced NeuAllanz as all one word) And we didn't get back home till 4ish then of course I had to drive up here early this morning and well... here I am, through all my classes but tired as all get out, Doc isn't here tomorrow so I only have one class and that's at twelve thrity so I think i'm going to be doing some major sleep catching up... So how was the trip you ask? Well quite possible the coolest trip ever for me... London has always been top on my places I'd like to live list... but I think New Orelans just topped it... It was like my perfect place, plenty of sun, but equal amounts of rain... A city, but a friendly city, It amazing how a place so big can still feel like a cozy little town... We had quite a few small scale adventures seeing the sights, and eating them too... Gator for instance is quite tasty, rather reminds me of sausage... I took my horn along and played for half and hour by the Mississippi River, I only played about 20 minutes before one the of the steam calyapies fired up and drowned the street musicians (myself temporarirly included) but In that 20 minutes I made 8 dollars and some odd cents which, for half an hour of practicing ain't all that bad... Guy could make a living do that stuff... The trip was wonderful, the food was wonderful... The only thing that New Orelans would need for me to move there is Erin... I miss her a whole bunch... I don't really feel like a complete person when she's not around, and all the Jazz In Orleans couldn't fill that hole... So I definentally plan on visiting again... and who knows maybe even living there some day... but Next time I go, i'm definentally going to take my Baby along... I have a sax lesson here in another 20 minutes, so I'm going to cut this short for now... But it has been quite a few days... Almost a week since I last updated!!!! So I'm going to get on that you know... Well actually I guess i'm doing that right now.... what I should say is I'll write a little more than this... probably while I'm at work today! So untill then... Smile it does you good

Darkness teaches you to appreciate light...