Soooo, there were no crying leprechauns this st. Patricks day... some very heavily intoxicated leprechauns... but not crying.. so, our little post-saint patricks day party went off without a hitch and good times were had by all... now that's what I like to hear...

Tonight was the jazz concert... it went SPECTACULAR... we pulled alot of stuff together at the last minute.. I was even fairly pleased with my improve over It don't mean a thing... I really would have like a few more choruses though... 24 measures just isn't enough... but the concert was grand.

I also got to talk to dad at the concert... and he's fairly sure he'll be able to build me a green house... even heat it!!! This makes me really really happy... hopefully we'll be able to get on it soon though... I should have started planting already... although winter is STILL trying to cling on even though it's really supposed to be done...

AND the best news of all, Tomorrow is my three year anniversary! Which makes me 3 years happy.... And Erin is coming up for a few hours to see me, in spite of being sick and more busy than any poor girl should be... she still loves me enough to come see me.. because she knows it'll make me really really happy...


Post-Saint Patricks day party - Much needed upgrade.
Jazz concert - Upgrade
John and probably Janice dropping Music Ed - Upgrade
Me still music ed - downgrade
Greenhouse - Upgrade
Erin coming to see me - upgrade
Coming to the realization that the four of us living in this room really like living with each other - upgrade
Realizing some girl who's going to be derikson's RA is probably taking our room - Downgrade... and sadness

3 year anniversary - Still the best upgrade ever!!!

So i didn't make the fast... In some ways i'm deeply dissapointed in myself.. in other ways I guess i'm happy... there is still so much to do... I really want to clean my room... which makes me wonder why i'm currently sitting on my tukas... ohh well,
I'm really frustrated with school... I still wish I wasn't Music Ed... Maybe staying ed to appease my parents and proffessors was a good idea.. maybe it wasn't... either way i'm sort of miserable... I've tossed the notion around of dropping ed, but doing grad school... but it's just a notion... probably not plausible or practical. but still an Idea.

There is a good chance that i'll either get, or Dad will build me a greenhouse for my birthday... this excites the ever loving crap outta me... A place to grow more plants than I have now... and maybe even get a couple bonzai trees going... it'd all be very very cool. I've already ordered seeds for a few trees, and a Venus Fly Trap... I know, maybe jumping the gun a little.. but I can grow them even if I don't get a greenhouse.. still.. I really want one..

school sorta has me depressed, the break was great.. but too short, much to short... I want to be away from here again... I don't like my classes, except for jazz band, and American music history... which is easy... but I really like the subject matter... but all this choral lit garbage, blech, Dr. Lemons is so full of crap half the time I just can't stand it... It's not that I don't enjoy teaching... anytime I work with kids, I enjoy it... and in my own opion i'd say i'm rather successful overall... But being here at school, the things "They" Say is important for me to learn... It feel like all so much crap... there are people who can jump through all their hoops and pass all their hoopla... but I can't even imagine them in a teaching situation... I just can't picture it. I won't name names of course..

Oddly enough one of the things bringing me joy is Chamber Choir... it's definentally improved my singing... and when everyone pulls together a little bit, it's really quite a fun time. And it even sounds good sometimes...

So here's the quick review if I typed too much for you to read through

school - Keeping major - Downgrade
break - Upgrade
break - finished - downgrade
greenhouse - upgrade!
venus fly trap - upgrade!
bonzai - Long term upgrade!
music ed - downgrade
chamber choir - upgrade

3 year anniversary sat - BEST UPGRADE EVER!

So i'm not fasting... I have too much to do this week... and the concert friday... this is still something I want to do... but I need to do it when i'll have time to reflect and gain the full effect... this does not however mean i'm not going to be on my diet... and trying to cut back on how much I eat...

Spring break was very super cool, and over all a really good time...
Unfortunatally it's over

So i've decided to fast this week.. mon-fri... it's 3 o'clock on monday... and well, i'm starting to wonder if i'll make it... i'm not super hungry but in the same vein i think I am... I actually went to lunch with the normal folks... but I didn't eat... and all of their food looked really really really good... Although the original plan was to still go to meals... i'm starting to think I should avoid them... hopefully today will be the hardest day... We'll see... There are a few reasons i'm doing this... one is to kick off a diet... I need to eat less... that's all, but I have a horrible food addiction, I really love to eat... so I doing this to sort of clear the plate... so to speak.. empty my system of all the junk food i'd eaten over break and clean my system out... This is to be a breath of fresh air, to clear my mind and clear my senses... so... we'll see how it goes... i'll end early if need be... but I hope not too... my only real concern is having enough energy for friday's jazz band concert...

Saturday will be my 3 year anniversary!!! Ohh it's so cool... me and Erin have been doing better and better... the break really helped alot... I love being with her... and can't wait to see her saturday... if only for a few hours... I love you sweetie!

Other than that nothing much is going on... I really don't feel like being at school... at all, I'm already irritated at my classes... and starting to feel frustrated again... but there isn't much else to be done about it!

So i'll keep posting, you keep reading... it'll all be good.