On a side note does anyone know what my favorite candy bar is? No, I didn't think so.

From Friday Feb 1st, 2003

Erin! Yes Erin, who does not count as one of the 3 friends because she's much more than just a friend... She's my Darling Fiancee!
When I met her my senior year in high school she took me from being depressed and unconfident, and made me the happiest little piece of shit you've ever seen.
She goes to Shippensburg University which is like technically an hour and a half away (actually more like an hour), where she is studying chemisty, with plans to go to dental school.
For these reasons the wedding isn't going to happen till 2006, probably may 20, It feels like a long time away but i'd wait till 2066, heck i'd wait till 2666 if I had to, she's the dearest thing in the world to me.
My long term goals are to teach in the public school system until Erin finishes dental school, then after she's raking in more money in a week than i'd probably make in a month, i'm going to be a stay at home dad, and cook, clean, take care of the kids and such.

I still wish these dreams...

And still...

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I just don't fuckin know how.

I need a new muse.

Three cheers to my ass fitting comfortably in a size 36 gap jean. Even i'm impressed.

Put music to our troubles and we'll dance them away! :) Feels good to be dancing.

I had a dream I, stood beneath an Orange sky.

So you've met before, if you read my space here, but I thought i'd introduce you to the other member of my club... us being the only two regularly attending members... although I think certain other's (maybe Brain Marderness) would participate if we knew where they were. I know what your saying... Danny I didn't know you were in a club!? I didn't even know you liked people! Well it's true. Its an age old, very selective organization.

P.W.K.T.A.D.I.N.A.A.B.M

Which is of course short for, People who know that Austin Durant is not actually a black man.
Our mission is simple, We love Austin Dearly, but we know darn well that there is nothing black about him.
I having known Austin for quite a long time, and Abby (pictured above) having dated him for quite a few years, are privy to the inside information, that Austin, No matter how dark his skin gets, is not a black man.
I hear the complaints now, Dan, I met Austin one time, and he looked black to me! I know, by all means based on appearences he is a black man. But don't be fooled by this disguise. Just the other day Abby and I were reminising about the good old days, and we came upon a website where many women seemed greatly mistaken that austin was a beautiful chocolate man. Sadly he is at best, a chocloate dipped saltine. Don't mistake his brillance and skill as blackness.
Many would call our organization misguided, Some would say that we are just a bunch of sex fiends and that we should stop terrorizing public library's the way we do. But we know from the bottom of our kidney's, that the world needs to be prepaired, Austin has already been unleashed on Nevada, and has even managed to cross the Ocean into London. God save the queen if she thinks it's a simple black man coming for her. It's this dark knowledge that has led both myself abby, and probably countless others twoard hours of heavy drinking, and an unhealthy obsession with trying to play folk guitar. Only the fact that we met each other before the PPTADWB (pre people thinking austin durant was black) age, have we maintained the sanity we now share.

I'll lie down for the last time
and fall well away from her
And I insist that I'll be dearly missed
(please, say never)
I'll pour down like water
In between the sky and doubt
we talked about 'forever'
and all our other useless words.

Until I say "in his silent sound was the
peace I found" but she hides behind
her eyelids. I feel the breath from
her nose on my neck as it blows by.
the warmth passes me (like her love did)
"But a tree once cut down
came up new from the ground"
she smiles a lie, "that may very well be,"
she replies "and so it goes,
it's the devil, I suppose but it doesnt matter much to me."

Put music to our troubles
and we'll dance them away.

RK06Trpt: The point is, I still love you
RK06Trpt: And that's what matters

Aww Robbie You know how to make a guy feel special.

I want some body to tell me, answer if you can, I need somebody to tell me, tell me what is the soul of a man.

Some thoughts and reflections..

I wish i could hate Erin, but i reallly honestly don't.
I really wish we could still be friends, but i'll let her go
I wish i could let her go from my heart, the way she has me.
I guess it just takes time, I wish i knew how she forgot me so fast.

My exit unobserved,
And my homesickness absurd...
I said "water" expecting the Word would satisfy my thirst,
Talking all about the second and third
When I haven't understood the first.

Jonah, where's that boat going...your ship set with eager sails?
There's a swirling storm soon blowing, and no use, fishermen,
In rowing from the consecrated whale!

And just like the clouds, they bring a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall,
I felt the crowd bring a loneliness and a hard rain, a hard rain's gonna fall.

And she'd always weight me down,
But, afraid I might need her, I dragged her around,
It's best to keep close sackcloth and ash in a whitewashed town;
She wore that phony smile on her face,
I guess like a bandage on a wounded place,
While I kept the keys to every old lock just in case.

Rehearsed indifference tossed aside,
Our narrow arms spread wide,
"What unseen pen etched eternal things on the hearts of human kind...
But never let them in our minds?"

Oh, the clouds they brought a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall,
And all my laughter ends in emptiness and a hard rain's gonna fall.
My every medicine causes more illness and a hard rain's gonna fall,
And until I let you go I didn't know, you were never mine...
You were never mine at all.

But now I spend my days in ever-increasingly complicated ways,
Convincing myself of the rightness of each word I say.
My exit, unfair if unobserved!
My exit, unfair if unobserved!
My exit, unfair...
Ya sabur, subhannallahi, a'udhu billahi minash-shaitanir-rajim,
al-hamdu lilllah, bismillahir rahmanir rahim.

OHH OHH OHH OHH, You kids know what Nov 1st is right!!! Star Wars Episode III hits DVD! While that in itself isn't THAT big a deal.. What it means is that I have to start planning the party, yes that party. The ultimate test of movie fandom! The 6 film consecutive marathon! I've already talked to many of the interested parties, so people need to start letting me know when we want to do this. As much as the thought of this is scary, it's something that needs to be done.

Plus anyone who remembers Mad Elf Christmas, well, anyone who at leasts remembers that they were there, if not mentally haha... I'd like to have mad elf christmas at my place, I'll even shell out for the Elf, So let me know if you kids would like to have the second year of our festival of bottled cheer.

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You use to be the perfect girl,
Now your just another face.
Your just like everyone else,
Doing whatever it seems to take.

Your not really being yourself,
Only what others want you to be.
In the past you were yourself,
But now thats a faded memory.

You say its because you grew up,
But really you just grew down.
You say this is the real you,
But the real you was left in this town.