Things are doing better, last night at the hospital fete book thingy I bought all of ian fleming's james bond novels thanks too the keen eyes of my sweetie... Today I also planted my herb garden... I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now... but i'll try to get a full report of Dan like activity up soon... I also got some good philosophy books, so I'll be able to start finding some good wisdom for the bottom of these typolitical thingies I do... I'm still jobless and this is bad... but monday I start going to Gold's Gym and trying really hard to not be fat anymore, so that good! I need someplace to go with all these books! How crazy! K... I Gonna go

Got to admit it's getting better, a little better, all the time...

Things are doing better, last night at the hospital fete book thingy I bought all of ian fleming's james bond novels thanks too the keen eyes of my sweetie... Today I also planted my herb garden... I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now... but i'll try to get a full report of Dan like activity up soon... I also got some good philosophy books, so I'll be able to start finding some good wisdom for the bottom of these typolitical thingies I do... I'm still jobless and this is bad... but monday I start going to Gold's Gym and trying really hard to not be fat anymore, so that good! I need someplace to go with all these books! How crazy! K... I Gonna go

Got to admit it's getting better, a little better, all the time...

Things are doing better, last night at the hospital fete book thingy I bought all of ian fleming's james bond novels thanks too the keen eyes of my sweetie... Today I also planted my herb garden... I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now... but i'll try to get a full report of Dan like activity up soon... I also got some good philosophy books, so I'll be able to start finding some good wisdom for the bottom of these typolitical thingies I do... I'm still jobless and this is bad... but monday I start going to Gold's Gym and trying really hard to not be fat anymore, so that good! I need someplace to go with all these books! How crazy! K... I Gonna go

Got to admit it's getting better, a little better, all the time...

Things are doing better, last night at the hospital fete book thingy I bought all of ian fleming's james bond novels thanks too the keen eyes of my sweetie... Today I also planted my herb garden... I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now... but i'll try to get a full report of Dan like activity up soon... I also got some good philosophy books, so I'll be able to start finding some good wisdom for the bottom of these typolitical thingies I do... I'm still jobless and this is bad... but monday I start going to Gold's Gym and trying really hard to not be fat anymore, so that good! I need someplace to go with all these books! How crazy! K... I Gonna go

Got to admit it's getting better, a little better, all the time...

Things are doing better, last night at the hospital fete book thingy I bought all of ian fleming's james bond novels thanks too the keen eyes of my sweetie... Today I also planted my herb garden... I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now... but i'll try to get a full report of Dan like activity up soon... I also got some good philosophy books, so I'll be able to start finding some good wisdom for the bottom of these typolitical thingies I do... I'm still jobless and this is bad... but monday I start going to Gold's Gym and trying really hard to not be fat anymore, so that good! I need someplace to go with all these books! How crazy! K... I Gonna go

Got to admit it's getting better, a little better, all the time...

Wow, I'm really sorry it's been so long since i've taken the time to write anything, i don't know what would make me belive me life would become LESS hectic when summer started... how silly of me right?

Well it's been an interesting week, Erin and I went to Maryland to go see Gil Saham play violin, compliments of Janice's Dad, the concert was amazing, we were sitting front row at the kennedy center so it was pretty neat... and Gil was absolutally amazing... just incredible... other that than that, i've just been hanging out with Erin and trying to get stuff done... My room is really a total wreck because I finished uppacking the van of all my stuff from college... So it's crazy in here, I can't honestly say i'm not totally depressed and one-hundred percent at my stesses limit right now... And I can't honestly say there is any other reason than me and Erin are having difficulties... Not fighting per-se, it's just a difficult situation... She thinks i've drastically changed, and I can't see it... And it upsets her, and i'm afraid I don't make her happy anymore, but there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about any of it... I'm just so afraid that I can't make her happy anymore and I don't know what to do... She got upset on the phone with me and just left... I don't want her to be tired of me, or unhappy being with me, but I don't know what to do anymore, i'm completly out of ideas... I try everything I can to make her feel loved, but How can I possibly know if i've done all I can do... I'm going to keep trying till either she dumps me, or I die... I'm just at such a loss right now, and with the added stress of waiting for school grades, and not having a job, and the mess in this room, dan is about to have as much as he can take... The only person I could really talk to about this is Erin... so I didn't know where else to go but to my blog... She's my everything, but I don't know if i'm all she needs... I'm sorry this really isn't long enough to let you know what's been going on since the 12th but it will have to do for now... I just don't have it in me to type anymore, I think i'll just go cry in bed...

Rakuen

Cleaning out the van, my room, and my car... I want it to rain... but not while i'm outside ok? Good :)

So i'm home, It was Erin's birthday which was lots of fun.. I like giving her presents... Although she resists every chance she gets... tomorrow we're going to maryland to watch a concert with Janice.. it should be fun! Umm not much else going on really... I'm going to try and give my car a big overhaul cleaning although i'm not sure if the weather is going to be in my favor or not... the way the sky is looking i'm going to think not... ok, going to go.. I don't think you people are reading this anyway... I'll keep writing though cause i'ma sucker for it yah know

Ohh yeah